i've just realized something great.

i know what i want.
yes.


i want to be happy in my own goddamn skin.
i want to be so content and comfortable in my body that i can run around naked, with friends, with strangers, and not care. everyone else can pretty much do it. why can't i? i've never done it before, why can't i just accept myself and realize that this body is okay and just be happy?


why is this so fucking hard for me?


why must i make a big deal of nothing and care so much and get so worked up inside and feel so uncomfortable?
why must i feel this way and have no one to talk to and can't have someone who will just help me get over this? why am i so judgemental over my own fucking self?
why can't i get over it?


someone teach me to be happy and comfortable with my self.