Restless.

Argh, I can't sleep...too many thoughts running through my head. I don't want to sleep now, I want to work everything out that is bothering me...right now. But that won't happen. I don't want to type this in a fucking blog, but my god I need to let it out. Things will work themselves out and I'll say what I need to say and hopefully that will help.


But I don't feel loved anymore. And honestly, it is the worst feeling in the whole world. Worse than losing a best friend or even being cheated on. I won't say what else it's like, because then I'd just sound like a poor, pathetic loser. And maybe this feeling is not true at all. I don't know. I want to say more, but simple type on my computer won't convey anything. Uhm, I love you dearly; as a person, friend, lover, boyfriend.


I want things to work out; for everyone.