Too hard.

I'm stuggling with my Italian class. It's so different, and I miss French. I like the language, but just the way the homework sheet is printed that he gives us is soooo confusing. I feel completely lost. I'm trying and I want to learn it but I feel like a fucking failure and everyone else is getting it but me. And yesterday was the last day I could drop it with a full refund, and I feel like if I did drop it now, my dad would be mad that I wasted his money. And I have orchestra @ 7, and once again, I never want to go...it's at such an inconvenient time...Sunday nights from 7-10. What the crap. But I haveto stay in a performing group...or I'd probably never play or practice. Ugh, I need some help. I love college, but this is hard.